Jeeze... I need to breathe...

I feel like there is so much going on right now...

With the start of school, I have been so terribly stressed. I am already behind on the massive amounts of reading because I have not received all of my books yet...and that makes me behind and it is not even my fault. I ordered my books one day shy of a month before the class started. I thought that was enough time.

Also, we are knee deep in getting a condo. Now we are playing the waiting game... and I hope we get this place. 

Kind of nervous...

So I have written ( and bitched ) about my starting school. Well now that it is only a handful of days away I am really getting nervous. I used to pride myself as a student, and after dropping out of two different colleges over the last two years, I am questioning my ability to do this... seriously.

In high school I was an excellent student, and when I got pregnant during my senior year it really made me hate school. I ditched 50% of the time and I am very surprised I graduated.

I absolutely love learning, and that side of me is terribly excited to start school.

My head hurts... and I am tired of it!

Lately I have been getting these god damn headaches at least once a day. And by "at least once a day" I mean this: some days I might wake up with a headache, and it will go away. Then by 3:00 I have another headache... what the hell is up with that?

I have been to a list of doctors ten sheets long just to be prescribed different medicines that do one of two things:

1. Make my headaches worse (if that were even possible) along with nausea and vomiting.
2. Do not do a damn thing.

Why is it I am stuck with this pain? Why cant these doctors figure out what is wrong with me? And why do I feel like they are sticking me with the most common type of migraine medicines because it is the closest thing to "one size fits all" that headache medicine can possibly be?

I know I can make it through, but it really makes chasing after a 17 month old hard.

Damn the doctors who try to fit me in a size 2 medicine bracket when I am a damn 16!

~nina

Hard... hard day.

Today I have been super lethargic... everything is just dragging on and on. I really do not think it helps that Zoey's sleep patterns are all jacked up.

Last night Zo refused to go to bed at her normal time, which is anywhere from 8:30-9PM. She did not fall asleep until 10:30-11 at least. So I figured she would sleep in longer because she did not go to bed as early as she normally does.

(When Zo goes to bed at her normal time, she does not usually wake up until 9:30 the next morning.)

Well I was wrong... she decided to wake up at 7:30 this morning and I am completely exhausted...I tried napping when she napped but that just jacked up my system more. This just makes me laugh because people always told me... "When you are tired and you have a baby... always nap when they nap." Yeah well suck it that does not work for me... it makes me even more tired and I hate that damn advice!

So now it is almost 8:30 and I am exhausted... still.

How the hell am I going to stay awake for LOST tonight? I do not want to go to bed at 9 like an old person.

~nina

The most frustrating... stressful... out of control day EVER

Last night I started working hard on a new web idea... which I cannot disclose to anybody right now. Things got all screwy and now I am in the middle of fixing all of the mistakes I made. Thanks to a great friend (Rhea) for providing me with such great hosting support.

But I have decided  move my original blog back to wordpress... I decided to try squarespace but I honestly feel I am better off on wordpress and the hosting cost for squarespace is completely out of the question. I can have 3 websites online for not even half the price of squarespace... oops did I just let a hint out? My bad.

I am having a really hard time converting back everything squarespace had me change. I will figure it out eventually. You know.. once I hear back from customer service.

*sigh*

This day has been so stressful. I just need things to go back to normal. And I need everything to be working properly. Oh fun!

~Nina