Well, it's been a while.

I feel kind of bad, like I am abusing my name. Ninasay.com was supposed to be my legacy, but there is still time for that, right?

Just a little update. My last post dealt mostly with my summer classes, and those are long gone. I passed both with high A's and I am very proud to say so because not many others in those classes passed with an A. I surprised myself with what I could do.

Jeeze... I need to breathe...

I feel like there is so much going on right now...

With the start of school, I have been so terribly stressed. I am already behind on the massive amounts of reading because I have not received all of my books yet...and that makes me behind and it is not even my fault. I ordered my books one day shy of a month before the class started. I thought that was enough time.

Also, we are knee deep in getting a condo. Now we are playing the waiting game... and I hope we get this place. 

You know it is almost summer because...

I am starting to get my flip-flop tan line... awesome right?.

My favorite part of summer has always been the fact  that the only part of my body that tans is my feet, face and arms... I look like an ice cream sandwich but the chocolate chip cookie kind.

Tomorrow if the start of my future.

I know that must sounds horribly cliche... but it really is true.

Tomorrow I start school, it is going to be a true test of whether or not I am cut out to be an educated individual! Kidding... of course... I have always known I would be some sort of professional.

So... wish me luck. For real!

My future starts tomorrow, and I cant wait to help provide for my family.

~Nina

Kind of nervous...

So I have written ( and bitched ) about my starting school. Well now that it is only a handful of days away I am really getting nervous. I used to pride myself as a student, and after dropping out of two different colleges over the last two years, I am questioning my ability to do this... seriously.

In high school I was an excellent student, and when I got pregnant during my senior year it really made me hate school. I ditched 50% of the time and I am very surprised I graduated.

I absolutely love learning, and that side of me is terribly excited to start school.

I think I need to stop watching T.V.

I am seriously the biggest sucker.

Every time I get deeply involved in a show I get terribly emotional when something traumatic happens. The reason I bring this up is because I watched the newest episode of House today and it just seemed to fuck me up emotionally.

Never before have I seen an episode of House where the patient does not get properly diagnosed and saved... but I guess that is just what happens, they needed to spice it up a little bit. 

They could have chosen to spice it up differently though, I mean this lady was trapped under rubble of a collapsed building... they had to amputate her leg without anesthesia and then she dies with her husband in the ambulance. Oh yeah... and it was her husbands birthday.

The only good part of the episode is when House and Cutty (or however you spell the hot boss lady doctors name) confess their love for each other and makeout. Hot and heavy stuff.

But does love have to die for love to begin?

This is why I need to stop watching T.V.

And do not even get me started on how bad the LOST season finale jacked with my emotions. That is a blog post that probably will never happen.

~nina

My head hurts... and I am tired of it!

Lately I have been getting these god damn headaches at least once a day. And by "at least once a day" I mean this: some days I might wake up with a headache, and it will go away. Then by 3:00 I have another headache... what the hell is up with that?

I have been to a list of doctors ten sheets long just to be prescribed different medicines that do one of two things:

1. Make my headaches worse (if that were even possible) along with nausea and vomiting.
2. Do not do a damn thing.

Why is it I am stuck with this pain? Why cant these doctors figure out what is wrong with me? And why do I feel like they are sticking me with the most common type of migraine medicines because it is the closest thing to "one size fits all" that headache medicine can possibly be?

I know I can make it through, but it really makes chasing after a 17 month old hard.

Damn the doctors who try to fit me in a size 2 medicine bracket when I am a damn 16!

~nina

Hard... hard day.

Today I have been super lethargic... everything is just dragging on and on. I really do not think it helps that Zoey's sleep patterns are all jacked up.

Last night Zo refused to go to bed at her normal time, which is anywhere from 8:30-9PM. She did not fall asleep until 10:30-11 at least. So I figured she would sleep in longer because she did not go to bed as early as she normally does.

(When Zo goes to bed at her normal time, she does not usually wake up until 9:30 the next morning.)

Well I was wrong... she decided to wake up at 7:30 this morning and I am completely exhausted...I tried napping when she napped but that just jacked up my system more. This just makes me laugh because people always told me... "When you are tired and you have a baby... always nap when they nap." Yeah well suck it that does not work for me... it makes me even more tired and I hate that damn advice!

So now it is almost 8:30 and I am exhausted... still.

How the hell am I going to stay awake for LOST tonight? I do not want to go to bed at 9 like an old person.

~nina

Evil Emotions.

Have you ever felt like you've been stabbed in the heart? But it is your fault?

Yeah...

That is how I feel right now.

~nina

It really feels great...

I have been actually blogging for about 7 months, my first blog is still going strong and I love it to death but I really feel like it lost its personal feel... I love reviewing products and hosting giveaways but I have been needing to just step aside and be me... separately. 

This is why I started NinaSay.com... how much more personal can it get? The damn URL is my name! Fuck!

That is another thing I am looking forward to on this blog... I honestly do not need to keep the level of professionalism here that I do over at TOF. I can bitch and moan about anything I want and not have to worry about the PR rep I am working with to see it and get offended.

I need to be ME and feel free. And I already feel the great release of captivity. I now have two venues I am pursuing... the professional one and this one.. the "all hell is about to break loose and all of you better run for cover because this chick is crazy" venue.

Prepare yourself. :)

~Nina